Beguiled by the Frailties of Those Who Precede Us
Scrub your face with a vengeance.
Brush your teeth till your gums bleed.
Comb your hair into a pompadour, braid it
into cornrows, buzz cut a flattop with side skirts,
spit-paste that cowlick to your forehead.
That’s how it begins, this becoming who you aren’t.
A twitch or tic or two you may inherit, but the face
in the mirror you recognized only once
before you’re beguiled by the frailties of those who
precede you — your wayward Aunt Amelia,
the lying politician, tongue flickering through his false
teeth, the long-legged temptress slyly sipping a latté
at the corner coffee shop, your scapegrace
one-eyed Uncle Bill — all of them competing
for your attention, all of them wanting you to become
who they believed they were going to be.
Between intention and action, take a deep breath
and welcome the moment you become who you aren’t.
Slap on Uncle Bill’s black eye patch,
stuff those willful curls under Aunt Amelia’s cloche,
pluck your eyebrows, rouge your cheeks, bleach
those teeth whiter than light: then stare deep into
the reflection behind the mirror: who you’ve become
will trouble you, even if you shut your eyes.
— Stephen E. Smith
Stephen E. Smith is a retired professor and the author of seven books of poetry and prose. His memoir The Year We Danced is being released this month by Apprentice House Press.